See this is going to be a weird anonymous blog because it is not going to be anonymous lol. But this special person shouldn't be in the shadows as she is my best friend in the whole world. Keep smiling, keep shining, knowing you can always count on me foresure because that's what friends are for<3. That was the song that we sung on kareoke, even though it is like a really old song it still means alot to me. Caitlin Marr was one of the first Canadians I met when I first moved here I don't remember her on the first day of grade eight but apparently she remembers my mom who supposedly had bright red hair lol even though she has very dark brown hair maybe Cait should of got her eye's checked out. I remember being first best friends with Jessica I can't say I fully regretted being friends with her because I became closer to Cait when she decided to go home for weeks on end not a very steady friendship at all.
First Science class and first impressions with Cait wasn't the best I don't know why but she was boasting about candy and stuff lol because we were cooking like marshmellows in our group and she said that it was her birthday anyways soon so she would get all the candy. Sure enough we became closer anyways and when I found out that I was going to move on her street we started to become real close friends. I remember one time in Science class Cait went to go find a chair got one then was about to sit down until Chris Parker took it when she was about to sit on it, She fell on the floor and then they both started fighting over the chair. This was probably our second science class as she had just brought all that candy in and was sent outside with Chris and couldn't make anything at the time it was not funny I felt so bad for her but now it was in the past and both of us have had some wacky times. Finding her street and my future street was awful I walked past it a couple of times because for some reason I couldn't see the street sign. So after getting lost a few times I finally found her house but what do you expect for someone new to the town or even country it was totally different from what I was used to. Apparently Quinn her little brother was sat outside in a blanket I don't really remember that but he does so yeah sure that's what happened. I'll never forget that day we both made some clay stuff that she had making hearts and other shapes I had a fun time at her house just a few years in the future and I basically live at her house sometimes.
Halloween 2005 we went out trick or treating togethor she was a go-go girl and I was an angel (come on I really didn't need a costume to be one of those) it was a fun halloween I really enjoyed it, it was really weird because in England it was totally different more people did it here and we got so much candy it was amazing it probably lasted about a month after. We even had to come back to unload it and go round again. The rest of the year was just as good it was really good, I had a great grade eight graduation and a very very very hot summer not what I was used too.
Moving was the hardest thing I have ever done and twice in a few years it wasn't just hard on me it was hard on Caitlin too. In grade 10 at the beginning it was really hard as after our fight I didn't have anyone at that point in time I thought I had lost all hope of ever finding a best friend she chose Jen over me and even though I didn't like it I guess I had no choice but to accept it she wanted her space so I just had to move on too. It took a toll on my life and even though I don't have depression for those 2 months i was deeply depressed and sad. After a while we started talking again and both of us apologised for what happened nobody is perfect even though she kind of hurt me she didn't mean it and later on in the year I hurt her deeply too. That's why moving in grade 11 was a big leap for maturity. I'm sick of hurting the people I love and starting afresh really helps alot. I don't know how Cait can put up with me because I know if I was in her shoes It would be very difficult I'm stubborn and can be a big bitch at times even though I can't help it I guess everyone has faults.
This year SLiC is really helping out with stuff like friendship I don't wnat to lose my best friend because of a little fight or disagreement I want a friend to go through all of high school, college/university and for years and years you really don't know what you have got until it's gone. I think of this year as an oppurtunity to do something and looking forward for the future WITH my best friend in it.
This isn't the end of a book and our friendship I think of it as a chapter ending and another one beggining. I love you so much Caitlin Marr<3
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I'm actually sitting here, crying. I'm pathetic . Your friendship means more to me than I could ever express to you Emma, your friendship has been my saving grace many times. It was soo hard choosing between you and Jen. And, honestly, I never want to have to do that again, it was near impossible, and neither desicion could of been the right one, because I loved you both so much, i was losing a good friendship, and that was terrible. I love you, Emma. I really do, and I appreciate every little thing you have EVER done for me, because it all has made me who I am. You saved my life, that day in the park. And I will never forget it, walking to John M James afterwards and sitting on those hills just talking.You are everything and more to me, best friend. and no matter what happens, til the day that I die, I will remember you, for making life so much better. Thank you for putting up with my bull so many times.
ps, i have never endured more pain in my life, then the day I said goodbye to you, in grade nine. although it was hard at the end of this year too , it was nothing like September 23rd 2006, that was honestly - the worst day of my life.
so.
i'm crying again.
but it's for different reasons
i fuckin hatelife.
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